Songs for the moment

Its so weird how it won't go away. Why would this matter to me so much? Why would she remain? Everytime I look at someone she's there. It's like she recreated a little bit of a traumatic experience just for me. I really can't stop thinking about it. But is it really me thinking? Or am I just the one in the background, seeing myself thinking and remembering her? I can't even remember anything about her. She actually seemed like a mean person. She was the same as Julie. She's had her insides and outsides ripped to shreds, and now she recreates that experience with the people in her life. Why would I need her? I don't need anything. I don't actually have anything to begin with. I cannot possess a woman, a car, a job, or even my own life. I don't even get to keep the body that I'm living in! It all belongs to God! Oh, how I can see it now. I am forever in this moment, but I am really everything and everyone. We are all related. We cannot be seperated, we are all as one. There is nothing to be gained, nothing to be lost. No fear and no end of fear. There is no loss. There is no death, and no life. Nothing ever begins and nothing ever ends. Whatever love I've found was always there, and was not created. It can only be discovered. I wish for her all the things I want for myself - to breathe, to live, to see God in everything. I am alive.